Fed up.

I will admit that I can't go a day without saying something. Although, this might not need to be said. Maybe no one will read it and I'll just be able to get it off my chest and move on to better and higher places.

I am fed up with myself. Tonight was not a good night - although the second shower head was replaced but some thing is wrong with the electricity so although it doesn't leak anymore there's no hot water... We have a nightly routine with the kids. It really should be pretty easy for all of us to just do what we do every night but for some reason the kids don't listen to me. Last night I quit talking because they weren't listening so I decided I just wouldn't say anything. I'm not sure if it went better or not - maybe I should try it for a whole day? I know they are just kids - really cute, sweet kids who know a lot. I just don't get it though. I say something, tell them to do something and they don't do it. They either sit there contemplating, "I know mom is talking to me and I understand what she said but did she really mean it?" or they ask a question trying to divert me and that's just worse. I'm not asking them to be super geniuses (but maybe they are and I'm the weakest link).

I bet Heavenly Father says the same things about me.

Heavenly Father: I just asked her to keep the commandments. It's not really that hard. I have outlined the purpose of mortality. You think she'd understand the rules by now.

Me: Well, did he really mean this or can I get away with this? I will read my scriptures... during Church. I pray with my family every night and I thought about saying my prayers this morning...

Heavenly Father: Is it really that hard for you to do what I ask you to do?

Anyway, I better go read the General Conference Ensign and maybe I can have peace in my heart to make tomorrow a better day and tomorrow night a better night for all of us.